The photo on the left was taken during one of my darkest years in LA. I had never been so unhappy in my life. I felt empty, alone, and like my very soul had been corroded away. Just looking at my face in it hurts my heart to remember that year.. I smoked weed all day. Every day to try to numb myself from the reality of my vapid, evil existence. Oddly, many people applauded this lifestyle, including my inner circle. I was struggling with keeping my will to live. I battled very dark thoughts.
The photo on the right was taken after everyone accused me of being "crazy" for abruptly leaving Hollywood. I was told I was being "controlled" by my now husband for not wanting to smoke weed anymore or drink(I wanted it for ME). I was told I was "losing myself" finding sobriety and starting a new career selling Avon. Apparently, being a fame wh*re dressed like a sk@nk everywhere I went was who everyone thought I should be.
Does my face reflect how controlled and unhappy I am in that photo? Does my glamorous life of selling my soul for a dollar look more appealing to you?
#innerpeace #antm #happiness #lifeisgood.